For an entire year I had been anticipating that I’d be in Haiti building a children’s school right now. I spent 5 months fundraising, 3 months getting ready for the trip, and a year talking about it. I had promised everyone that the day I left forHaiti was going to change my life and I wasn’t going to return to the one I was leaving.
Unfortunately, a week and a half before we were set to get on a plane, our trip was postponed. Haiti’s presidential elections have caused violent turmoil in the country and traveling there is no longer safe. So with my bag halfway packed and my plans cleared for the week, I slumped back with a mixture of emotions that starkly contrasted the excitement I had been feeling. Frustration, anger, disappointment, confusion, fear, sadness…
I had been imagining a spark, something that was to set my “old life” ablaze as it transformed into something new and brilliant. That date of January 31, 2016 held the promise of everything I’d been hoping for for the past 5 years. So when the date became just a passing Sunday, I was forced to sit back and observe all that I’d hung on it.
For me, this trip to Haiti was more than a service trip. It was the life event to mark my transition from full-time office employee in a job that sucked my soul, to a purpose filled and aligned life of doing work that actually felt good. The thing is, I did actually quit my job (with the last day being on January 29). I did witness the Universe placing blessings and opportunities in my path as I proudly walked along it.
All of the brilliance was already in motion, but I was waiting for some big event to actually acknowledge it all. I was waiting for Haiti.
How often do we hang our transformations and transitions on some opulent Big Bang? Maybe I had already walked into my “new life”, but I was still observing it from the outside as a faraway land. Like reading the travel guide on Paradise instead of looking up to see I was already there.
Fortunately, my Highest Self wasn’t waiting for a silly date to dive into alignment. This postponement has given me that chance to step back and look at what I’ve already created so that I can be grateful and proud of it all.
I didn’t need a date, a trip, a critical event to make a shift. In fact, I’d already done it – I just hadn’t allowed myself to revel in the celebration!
Originally Posted on Yogi Gigi…